Distress was a painting I created during a rough period of anxiety which I was experiencing. Panic, nervousness, & paranoia felt like would slowly emerge as I would try my best to mask these feelings, much like the red lines eating through the interior of the white circle.
This collage was created as of criticism the expectation for women and femmes to always be happy and/or smile. By enforcing a type of toxic positivity, women and femmes are forced to mask emotions behind a smile devoid of actual joy.
As an illustration, this was a simple study of bones on a human skeleton figure. While drawing, I thought about how bodies can tell stories of who a person is, what they do, and what they've experienced. Once rendered a skeleton, how many stories are lost?
I was inspired by the idea of dreaming in color vs dreaming in black and white. That idea made me think of the two natures of sleep, one being a state of rest and the other being a state in which the mind and subconscious display lucid, vivid, (and at times) bizarre images and stories.
Dreams can be stories that get cut short, are only clear in certain parts, a full on narratives or seem to start in media res. Here, I used a pillow,and covered it in ripped out passages from various magazines; scattering stories with various perspectives about. The white paper and exposed pieces of the pillow symbolize the purity and tranquility of sleep, with black symbolizing the mystery and uncertainty of the dreams which sleep brings.
In creating this land art piece, I aimed to create contrast visually (colors) and material wise (concrete vs natural). It also became something which is a transient and ongoing creation. The image above is after having freshly layed the components together, and eventually, and still is, evolving with the passage of time and physical weathering.